Drove down by the lake and laid his seat back. I did the same. Talked about college and fears. I was laying on my side leaning in towards him, one hand proping me up the other by my side. He was doing the same. Said “you know what I haven’t done in college yet” and leaned forward pulling my face closer to his with both hands and kissed me. I knew it was coming I mean why else would we go down to the lake at midnight. It kinda felt like a dream and I want it back. We moved to the back. His heavy breaths in my ear were so attractive. Everything about him is attractive. I want the way I felt when he was holding me right back. I want to feel in control. He’s gone now tho. He was only back visiting. I think just to see me. Now I constantly think about this and him…but that’s a bad thing. I like him, a lot. We’ll never be together.